SCARY

Ok - so a while back I posted a quote from Marianne Williamson about being the person God created you to be and how freakin' scary that is. I have since tried to embrace this and impart it into my life. Being the best you can be requires such effort! I cook, I drive, I wash clothes, I write, I read, I sew. It seems all so simple, but really it isn't.

I have recently made some new friends and continued to connect with old friends who have encouraged me to do this very thing. God has totally put them in my life for a reason. As scary as it is and as freaked out as I am about some stuff, I know that He has a plan for my life.

We have been watching the Olympics - as have just about everyone else in the country, but watching these athletes fulfill their destinies, I am struck by the confidence and the absolute convictions they hold. How do they know these things? Aren't they plagued by the same insecurities and issues that we all have? The voices that whisper to you that you aren't good enough or that you don't have what it takes. The Screwtape and Wormtail issues that CS Lewis told us about.

I am here to tell you, walking out on that limb that God holds out with one hand is just about the scariest thing in the world. I am filled with all sorts of self-doubt and self-esteem issues but I know that if I follow God's plan and not MY plan, things are bound to work the way they should. -K